justcason

oh what i would give to breathe again. i've only been sick since like saturday, but i feel like i've been sick for ages... >.<

well since paddy moved out. (i think i forgot to mention that way back when...but yeah he moved out. he lives like 2 minutes away from the high school though, so i can still see him.) but since he moved out, ralph took his old room and made it his office, and i took ralphs old office and made it a part of my room..since its connected to my bathroom and all. my mom did an AMAZING job. she needs to be an interior designer, im serious. she's so damn creative. she look this old picture frame, just the frame, hung it crooked on the wall, then painted the inside of the wall (this pretty green color that 2 of my walls are) so it looks like its just a plain green picture, then hung these cool flower things inside it, and then took this awesome stencil thing and made some design inside it with the flowers. it probably sounds really weird, but its so intense. i LOVE it. it's like a have my own little apartment. i dont think im ever gonna leave my room haha. only to eat :P maybe i can get a fridge... :O

anyways, i made call backs for little shop. woop woop. they're wednesday (dance) and thursday (performance). im excited and nervous all at the same time. i just want something. lol

wow this isnt really taking up any...i was hoping by the time i finished writing all that it would be time to leave for school...i still have like 10 minutes. guess i type faster then a talk. i could go read more of my HP book. i forgot how good the 5th one gets at the end! :D

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well im seriously annoyed...
i just got a message on myspace from some random girl on myspace saying that i needed "saving" cause i dont believe in god. and she sent me this long ass message about how im "choosing the wrong path" and i "need god in my life". then she gave me all these reasons why god is real and why god is awesome. well here's what i have to say;

 

i dont believe in god, or any kind of god. i never have, and i never will. i've heard it all before and i'm still not impressed, thank you. to me, religion is just something for people to fall back on. its just something that people use as an excuse for their mistakes. its just something for people to believe in because no one knows what happens to you after you die. but really, if you knew what happened after you died, then there's no surprise at the end of the road. so what do i believe in then? i believe in nature. i believe that we're all connected - not by any "force" or "god" or "higher-being" - but by the fact that we're all humans living, breathing, surviving in the same air. some religious people's goals are to be with "god" one day. but for me, my goal is to achieve complete simplicity and true happiness. and thats enough for me.

so, now that that's settled..
i like this semester so far!
i dropped that AP psych class. i really want to take it, but honestly, i know i dont have time for it this semester. with districts, state, and the musical, it'll be a miracle if i pass my AP english class. (and i got the easy AP teacher...)
so instead im just TA-ing for neander since she doesn't have one 4th block lol :P

i've come to the conclusion that i have the most amazing taste in music ever. seriously. my music is awesome.
just saying.
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